Below are the 7 most recent journal entries recorded in nienna_surion's LiveJournal:

Sunday, February 27th, 2005
11:26 am	Yay this weekend has been great I whent to see National treasure which is a really great movie, rented some games, and just relaxed the entire weekend. I am no longer in a bad mood but still have very high strung emotions and for all those who weren't on the list it doesn't mean that you are one of the people I hate it's just that the other people came to mind before you did. I have downloaded so many amv's that I am slowing down my computer it's fun to listen to them but it makes my internet take to long. I have been sick the entire week and I'm starting to feel quite a bit better but thanmks to it I had to miss the demolition party that we were all going to go to. Instead just my parents whent and I was left home alone. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Rest in pieces by Silva (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, February 25th, 2005
9:49 pm	I havn't updated because my compy is being annoying and freezing and stutting off my internet but I am now. There are only a few people out of my group of so called friends that I don't feel spitefull towards right now. None of them ever have any time to hang out with me they always find some excuse to ditch me or avoid me, and when ever I ask if they want to do something the answer is no because they are always to busy for me. Some of them who live really close anyway so transport wouldn't be a problem can't do anything or go anywhere because they are on the internet doing "important things" as they say but earlier on they say they are doing absolutely nothing, surfing the internet, listening to music, or watching AMV's. I can't even compete with a freakin computer because I am so just not good to hang out with. They just find excuses all the time and don't even care that I'm depressed about the only people I can actually talk to live to far away for me to talk to all the time like in sundance. The only people that can actually make me smile or have fun anymore are Will (my ex) because he always knows just what to say to cheer me up, Danielle(my best friend) who can always make me happy and laugh, and is always there for me, thea carleen and megan (friends from sundance)because they are just so insane that you would have to be crazy to not be happy around them, Zoya (friend from school)who makes up all these weird things with me that always make me laugh, Val (school friend)because her nieve mind that isn't as nieve as most people think makes her a great person to talk to, Caroline (school friend)because of how she is, and Chrissy (school friend because she actually cares. I always feel more lonly with people then when I'm alone unless with listed people because I'm alays the person left out, or who doesn't know what's going on because they never tell me or talk to me about it. To many people I'm a great confident because I don't judge them for what they tell me and will give advice on the problems. There is one person who through aoll this I will never understand because when you first meet her you think that she is a great person and will love to be around her but do one thing wrong and you see her spitefull self and never know it that's the true her or not she is only your friend when it suits her and if you don't side with her then everyone will be against you because everyone thinks that she is such a nice kind person. She can get away with anything and no one will care they will for give well there was nothing to forgive in the first place because she was always such a nice person. If anyone else acted the way she does to those she isn't manipulating and even some who she is they would hate them she can only get away with it because of her looks and the origional reputation she built up. She has to be right about everything if it isn't what she believes then it is obviously wrong because "no one is smarter then her." She has an opinion about every thing and everybody she will shoot down everyone of your opinions without even batting an eyelash. You can't even like something with her unless everything is exactly as she has to have it she will tear down all in her way not caring about anyone. No one knows who the hell I'm talking about because they can't be sure if they have even met her because if they have then they will think that I'm the one who is horrible just because of my own personal opinions. The opinion of one who isn't manipulated and controled by her slightest whim. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: never more (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 1st, 2005
5:42 pm	I have been away for a long time with no computer and I had a lot of fun. Only a few more days until my birthday and for those who are coming to the party. I want money to buy something, gift card to indigo, manga: Kill me Kiss me 3 & 4, Eerie Queerie 4, Fruits Basket 6 & 7, D N Angel 2 & 3, Alichino 1, Love or money 1. Christmas is a great time of the year and absolutely nothing interesting has been happening other then the fact that my grandmother has cancer which is really sad so we are going to go visit her over summer holidays because she lives in Ontario. Current Mood: bored Current Music: My immortal (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 16th, 2004
4:30 pm	Hio I am back I havn't updated in a really long time because I haven't really had anything to say. I can't wait for christmas it is such a fun time of year and I already gave most of my friends their presents. Our Science teacher let us watch CSI because the entire week she just let us do fun forensic sciences and try to figure out who murdered someone, how, and why. Our math teacher just gave us a free day but our L.A. and social teacher made us do work. Our drama teacher let us do games and our Outdoor ed teacher letg us do a really fun swimming game. Escaflowne and fruits basket are really great shows and I wish that ytv would put escaflowne back on. It sucks that they took it off,and plus so many people like it. 4kids entertainment ruins anime and the songs and there are so many people that like the origionals. Art is so much fun we get to do so much in our school with it and I love it! There are so many talented people at our school. I got to draw a picture of Alucard and I got perfect marks on it and it was so freaken hard to shade. Current Mood: creative (Comment on this)
Friday, December 10th, 2004
9:00 pm	Hio me and Kalan-chan are creating a Fruits basket manga with people from our school it is so much fun! Furuba is one of the best manga's ever it sells over 10 000 copies a week in the U.S. and it is absolutly hilarious with a really dark side. Manga is really fun to read and it's fun to speak Japanese because almost no one knows what you are saying. Today was a great day and Jui-jitsui was really fun. In outdoor ed we got to do a relay race and the girls beat the guys by a long shot it was so funny. The teachers in our school are so wierd they will get mad at you for having juice in the class or slupies they will get mad at anything that is not water except for coffee. If you have coffee they will make statements that it looks really good and you have coffee. Our outdoor ed teacher is the best he feeds off our pain and is not afraid to hurt us when we deserve it or give the idiots many pushups. He will let us do almost anything as long as it does not amount to serious injury or it is going against what he tells us. If you talk when he does you get many pushups. The things that he does are so amusing and once you watch an educational film with his commentary it makes the most boring of them great to watch. no poem because I'm to lazy Current Mood: energetic (Comment on this)
Monday, December 6th, 2004
5:03 pm	School the horror that befall us all I hate it the only core subjects that are good are probably science and math, social is ok. Math in our class is actually fine our teacher will give us pretty ok stuff but maybe I'm just saying that because I get a lot of questions that the other grade nines don't. It is actually funny the way that not one person in our entire class could figure out this one really easy question. There are so many idiots in our school I mean some random kid in grade 8 asked if I was depressed just because my writing was really full of angst and it apparently made them sad, oh boohoo no one cares about some little sissy who can't take a little bit of sadness. There was also the aspect that every story I write usually has at least one descriptive bloody and gruesome death but hey if you can't take a little breath don't read it. When I came home the first thing my mom did was say that I needed to try harder in school and become more interested in L.A. and social because I am apparently a great child who can do anything that she wants to because I'm smart. It's really funny when parents think that their child is perfect I mean that's describing so many parents. I know so many parents who think that their child is the best thing to walk on the earth and could never do anything wrong, (and they call us naive). My mom is a good mother and I don't hate her like how many of my friends hate their parents. It's really kinda cool because my mom and dad are divorced and my mom is so overprotective while my dad is not at all. If I want to I can go almost anywhere at any time he even lets me throw parties. The only rule that he has for parties is that I clean up the mess, it wouldn't even matter how many people were there. My dad also just goes with things like he will say to me that I'm at a stage in my life when I'd rather hang out with my friends then parents and parents are completely uncool and it's really good to have a parent like that. I didn't say anything in the least to provoke this either. A really good poem by William Blake, it's called The Tiger. THE TIGER by: William Blake (1757-1827) TIGER, tiger, burning bright In the forests of the night, What immortal hand or eye Could frame thy fearful symmetry? In what distant deeps or skies Burnt the fire of thine eyes? On what wings dare he aspire? What the hand dare seize the fire? And what shoulder and what art Could twist the sinews of thy heart? And, when thy heart began to beat, What dread hand and what dread feet? What the hammer? What the chain? In what furnace was thy brain? What the anvil? What dread grasp Dare its deadly terrors clasp? When the stars threw down their spears, And water'd heaven with their tears, Did He smile His work to see? Did He who made the lamb make thee? Tiger, tiger, burning bright In the forests of the night, What immortal hand or eye Dare frame thy fearful symmetry? Current Mood: predatory (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 3rd, 2004
10:52 pm	happy day Earth is nothing but purgatory a place in where the devil and god condemn souls who do not deserve to be in hell but can't get into heaven are stuck until they prove themselves in gods eyes. No one even knows if there is a god or devil, good or evil, and did you ever notice that good is god with an extra o and evil is devil without a d. If there is a god and devil then are all demons bad and all angels good, no one can know because they have no idea until they die and if they accepted instead of stuck back in purgatory. If you bring up this argument in front of highly religious people you will either be scorned or they will scoff and ignore you. Have you ever noticed how the church like all people reject things that are not right according to them if they think it's wrong that makes it wrong. The people at my school are so annoying they keep discriminating against the "preps" who are basically anyone who they really hate everyone thinks a prep is someone different then themselves. They are all wrong a prep is just someone who goes to a private school or a preparatory school and now they aren't even considered "preps" because they don't have a certain thing according to the people who prosecute them. The people that I know can be annoying in other ways because they will not stop harassing you about who you like until the point where you finally snap and tell them or when you blow up at them to leave you alone about it and then they get mad at you, I find that just stupid. Do you know what the highlight of my day was today listening to a funny song that completely destroys a mans macho ego, this only proves how pathetic my day was. The song is called the creation of man and it is not as corney as it sounds it is all about how the lord created men because they are supposed to be beautiful and stuff like them wearing garters, ruffles, and lace. Another good song/poem is this one. Wish I was to dead to cry My self-affliction fades Stones to throw at my creator Masochists to which I cater You don't need to bother I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I wont let go till it bleeds Wish I was to dead to care If indeed I cared at all Never had a voice to protest So you fed me shit to digest I wish I had a reason My flaws are open season For this, I gave up trying One good turn deserves my dying You don't need to bother I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I wont let go till it bleeds. Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)